being real

I have no words to explain the feelings twisting around and around in my heart and mind, 

but Anne does. 

If you aren't afraid of real feelings head on over.

A firm foundation

 

 Yet this I call to mind

    and therefore I have hope:

  Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
    for his compassions never fail.
 They are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.

 Lamentations 3:21-23

There is one thing that I have come to know as never-changing in this world of ours....God's faithfulness. I can't even count the endless times that He has come through for the kids and I over the years, let alone in the countless times for my friends and family.

I believe firmly though that God partners with me. I think a lot of people get bitter towards God because they have this notion that God just gives to people. Sometimes that is the case, and I am so thankful for those times that I didn't have the strength and He still gave. But mostly in my life I have found that He holds it out and I partner with Him and receive it....I reach for it. 

Recently this is in the area of jobs to support my family. Before this it was in the form of a beautiful home, healthy friendships, nice vehicles, food in lean times, washers, dryers, health for my family and pets, college education.....the list goes on and on. 

I think the balance is in knowing when something is God's Will and when we are striving. This is still a road that I have to daily re-assess in my and my family's lives.

Anyway, I just wanted to encourage you if you find yourself wondering where God is in the midst of a circumstance you find yourself in that He is there. Sometimes (well most of the time) it feels like it takes f-o-r-e-v-e-r for Him to answer. In those times I ask Him what I can be doing in the meantime and do it. Like Elisabeth Elliot, who found comfort and strength in a poem after her husband died "when you don't know what to do, do the next thing." 

Keeps our hands and minds busy while God is working out the details!

Lori xo

reflections

I haven't made resolutions for several years now, but do try to keep in mind aspects of my life to keep before God that need some help. ;o)

One of those this year is one that is heard a lot in many lives. My health! Oh boy, have the last two years been a rollercoaster. A couple of Decembers have passed since I found myself with Pneumonia and almost complete adrenal exhaustion. It has been an uphill battle in nutritional changes and spiritual trust. It was more complex than I could have ever imagined, but now I am thinking I am coming over the top of it and am oh so ready to step more fully away from it. God has been such an anchor to me.

I started a new job this past year that I get to help foster youth learn living skills and much mentoring happens. I am going to an interview on Monday for a second job that I would work as an Independent Social Worker helping biological parents of foster parents get the resources they need to get their kids back. I do believe that some people can change and everyone deserves the chance to do that.

I have made new friends and let go of other friends. Transitioning out of a life that was built around a marriage that is no longer there. It hurts at first, but over time I knew it was the right choice. Being true to me.

I have started some fix-it-up stuff at my house. A little here and a little there and it is feeling more like home to me after three years living here.

I am looking forward to the journey that God has me on for 2013!
Lori xo