Thursday, January 27, 2011


soggy grass
bare trees





I cannot for the life of me remember where I surfed up this photo...if you know tell me so that I can link properly :o)

taking time to do a bit of daydreaming today..gardens, seed packets, warm places, ahhhhhhh

Monday, January 24, 2011

New lease on life

So good to be back here! Boy oh boy has my body been through the ringer. You know a person can learn all sorts of insight into themselves and those around them in times of quiet of the body.
I sure have.
I have learned that people like to help me. Not out of obligation, but out of kindness and caring. I have had that backward for quite awhile and I have a sense that many others do to. It feels really good to let the boundary down and allow people in that area. It can be debilitating to carry a load alone. I guess the thing that concerned me with help in the past was reciprocation. At this point in my life I am short on time and financial means (if you get my drift). When a well-meaning gift comes along it can un-nerve me for a second. I need to get over it...reprogram so to speak. When I give a gift or do something kind I sure don't expect something in return so I need to figure the same about others.

Anyway, that was one of my epiphany's while drifting between fainting spells. Maybe I am too thick-headed for God to reach me any other way. lol

I am seeing some great response in my body to the adrenal stuff and a dear friend Lise has come alongside me and is showing me some neat healthy alternatives that I will try to explain further in the future when I know more of it myself. It all starts with a Zitoscan that tells you what sorts of foods are allergies, deficient vitamins and tons more info. So far Zack and I have had it done and it really shows light on some things.

My professors and classmates have been so compassionate also during this time that is so humbling to me. There are no words.

And all of the kindness from so many over at Facebook. I just feel so cared for in word and action how could I not heal from it all?

::there is this appreciation within me for the simple things 
that wasn't there before::
To sit at the table on the laptop and be in the midst of my chilren in a busy home 
instead of propped up in bed. 
To walk to the pasture and pet the steer and on the way back see little buds of green 
pushing up through the flower garden on the front sidewalk.
driving myself somewhere and not seeing the worry on my kids faces because I am a passenger
walk through the livingroom and see the houses made for teddy bears
help with schoolwork
attend church with my family-I missed them!
pull warm clothes from a dryer
the list goes on and on...

So now I will get back to taking photos and sharing life here at our farm on Melbourne Road.

Hope your family is happy and healthy!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Eagle Cap eXtreme

 This past week my older brother Steve and his oldest daughter Brandi ran in
the EagleCapeXtreme in Oregon. 

100 miles! 
Oh how I wish I could have made the trip! 800 miles is a bit too much to drive right now though.
 The Oregonian wrote up a a very nice article about them.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

the body

the body is an amazing machine.
this past couple of weeks I have found myself in a health crisis starting with Pneumonia and continuing to the present with Adrenal Exhaustion. People say that healing from Pneumonia takes a long seems the easier of the two maladies to me.

I never in my life realized what effects the adrenals have on a body. Boy do I ever now!

This has been a nightmare...I really thought I would die from the fainting spells, irregular heart beat and low blood pressure. For hours and hours without reason and MOSTLY at night when a girl needs to sleep. with the help of some friends and health manuals we have researched supplements for adrenal exhaustion. Doctors really don't do much with adrenals so I am essentially on my own...but with the help of friends and Google. Today is the first day of somewhat good health...oh am I thankful!

There has been MUCH PRAYING and resting and hopefully I have the schedule of the supplements down now.

This morning I was able to:
start the fire
start a home buyer course online to finish up my requirements for purchasing this home
talk on the phone with several contractors who are the last ones to send in their bids
walk across the street to check the mail
do Sophie's hair to look like a Horse's Mane
do Hannah's hair to look like rabbit ears
*doing the hair on my girls was my highlight*

Here's to good health and learning to take it easier on my body while getting healthier to do the heavy work again!
Hope this finds you all in good health as we start this year of 2011


Sunday, January 2, 2011

ringing in the new year

disclaimer: this post may sound a bit here and there..props to you if you track with me :o)
As I sit here i am fighting pneumonia. not the best way to ring in the new year BUT it surely gave me gumption to declare a year of health for me and my family. as i look back there was far too much illness for a family that eats healthy and is active.

i am enlisting the services of a dear friend who is a very knowledgeable nutritionist. she is the best! we are already on two immune builders and other things will be added in time also. i call the year 2011 the year for building health...we have too much to do here at our farm to be sick. thats for sure

life gets so busy that much of the time our personal health isnt tended to until it hits a big dip...i am taking this next year to invest in the health first and foremost for my family...fresh fruit readily available, supplements, more sleep than we get now (thats for sure!)...

most of the time i tend to focus on one thing while others take the back seat...i think this is pretty natural.
i am going to try to be more balanced. mental, physical and spiritual. when one of these gets off balance it takes out the others too.

along the lines of the new year here are a few things that i am looking forward to:

 mental-continue earning my bachelor degree-adding in my first grant writing course this quarter. the program that i am taking really expands a persons ways of regarding others and why they make the choices that they do.

physical-waaaaaaaay back in the day i used to be a runner. during that timeframe I joined the Army National Guard. in basic training i led my platoon way to early in the morning on our run. it was a proud time for me. my body was about as physically fit as it could get and boy did i take it for granted. now 20 years, 5 kids and and the physical demands of being a single mom and i wish i had half of that stamina now. so what can i do about that? first of all-get over the pneumonia. secondly boost my adrenals and then walk, jog and run! may not be as fast as that, but it will come. i love to run...the solitary act of it. i guess my goal would be surmized as getting healthy...truly healthy. not a certain pant size, but healthy.

spiritual-boy oh boy. this one is something that the rest really rest on. if it is out of balance then i really cant do the other two. i set up an area in the corner of my bedroom with a bid comfy chair, book shelf and some (i have a lot) of my favorite books....get out of the pit by Beth Moore, As silver refined by Kay Arthur and a few Joyce Meyer too. Most of all I need to read the Bible more and the other books as supplements. to dig around in it like I used to. i found an old journal from right after the divorce and i used to write out a scripture and then I would unpack it (as Pastor Doug says) explaining what it means to me. i loved that time.

are you still here? hopefully i made sense ;o)
now back to bed with me

what are some of your outlooks for your new year?